I have this horrible restless feeling tonight. I need to write something - anything, all the things - but I'm also so terrified of writing right now that I can't even bring myself to open a notebook or a document. I feel like something's trying to claw its way out of my chest but I just can't let it out and I don't know why ( Read more... )

So I went to the doctor's office on Monday, partly just to get settled in as a new patient now that I have insurance, and partly to get a refill on my prescriptions. I spoke to the RN there rather than the doctor, but that's fine with me, because she was amazing. Or maybe I just have low expectations given my experiences with medical professionals ( Read more... )

I don't even know how to start this post. "So I am intentionally turning my life upside down for reasons I'm not comfortable talking about. :D" ...yeah, that works ( Read more... )

Being told "no one's going to make you do anything you don't want to do" shouldn't terrify me ( Read more... )

I was going to lock this - mostly out of habit - but screw that. I switched journals so I could feel safe posting publicly again, and if my parents can find this to read it... I'm screwed already, and I'll probably know about it very soon.

My dad emailed me today. And as there was no weird passive aggressiveness this time, and as that really is my ( Read more... )